[1stDecember2004 -- 4:58pm] It's funny how you chose today to talk to me. One of the most dreary days of this whole year. You seem to know Exactly when I'm almost over you. It's as if you can read my mind; Like seeing my actions tells you exactly how Im feeling. But, you run back to me with your bright smile and ever so loving eyes and pathetically make my day. And then you go and ignore me again. As if I ever did anything to you. As if there's a reason why you should treat my like I'm not even there. My only way of making conversation with you is starting it; But then again, I usually end it too. But it's funny, because I keep on letting you do this to me; As if I don't even care. 3 tell me the truth ♥ What do you really think.

[25thNovember2004 -- 6:40pm] Everyone add this LJ. iwantromance_x Pleaseeee. Thats my new name. 2 tell me the truth ♥ What do you really think.

[24thNovember2004 -- 9:02pm] My father didn't strut. And nor do i. ♥ What do you really think.

[24thNovember2004 -- 8:54pm] Spiders! spiders, They want me to tap dance, I don't want to tap dance! I will love you forever if you tell me what movie that issss. ♥ 4 tell me the truth ♥ What do you really think.

[24thNovember2004 -- 4:12pm] Thats Wiggity-wiggity-wack. 1 tell me the truth ♥ What do you really think.

[23rdNovember2004 -- 4:39pm] [ mood | Babysitting, YAY. not. ] [ music | Cut the Curtains / Billy Talent. ] Heh; Today when me and venus got off the bus, we started  singing some christmas song. Just because that stupid ice cream place at the corner is constantly playing songs, and today, they chose a christmas song. ARG and I hate that ice cream place; just because the guy that works there has like half of his finger gone, sooo gross!   I've got to go babysit very soon; and I so don't want to babysit, but I so need the money. Moo-lah;Cash;Dinero. Whatever you want to call it, I need it. I want Un camera. Want to take Pictureeees. I'm a picture freak/whore. The more pictures the better! Hurhhmmm, This is aold bit of conversation; BUTITMAKESMEFEELSOGREAT. Richchard Nixon: jessieluhv is WAY better than vinnie(not)luhv. Got my report card today. 91 average Baby! Go me; I'm still on honor rolllll. One of the great convo's of mine about  report cards: Justin: Hey did you get your report card? Me: Yes i did Justin: What was your average? Me: 91 Me: yours? Justin: 92 Me: ah you  loser. OFCOURSE. One freaking point over mine. Roar. I'm such a nice person: Jessie 8 902: you are such a dork, but i love you. Jessie 8 092:  lol Iluvnick1031: lol i love ya too jessie. I'm so nice. Wow, this short little entry, turned into a nice long one. I get distracted from my original plan easily. I'm so weird. Ohh my new thing. Gawd do this to all the guys now: Stepping on the back of their shoes. Gets quite a few of them very mad. [Ex . Matthew Scherman.] Others, just don't care.                                                                                                I 'd be fooling my heart if I said I hate you. 8 tell me the truth ♥ What do you really think.

[22ndNovember2004 -- 5:23pm] [ mood | Journal Journal Journal ] [ music | tnelaT ylliB - esoL oT gnihtoN ] Okay, said I'd update; so I am. I'm Quite an updating whore. Goshhhhhh, Today was Dress up as Matthew Anderson Day. Me Chelse And Lindz. We all wore one of his shirts, Me and Lindz wore his hoodies also;Chelse forgot hers. BUT; special me; Wore his belt also, so I was most Matthew Anderson-ish. Go Me. Vinnie is convinced I'm in love with the kid. When i started talking to him when we were walking out of lunch, he just said "WHYDONTYOUASKHIMOUTALREADY!?" I Guess he thinks I'm the type of person to ask a guy out. So am not;Justtoletyouknow. And then He wouldn't tell me who he likes; Because he is a tard. Says he Doesn't like Shelby, I wish he did. Because i LOVE shelby and it would make her the happiest person ever. But he says he doesn't like anyone. He's a liar;He just doesnt want to tell me. Everyone ALWAYS likes someone. Haha, even though i always say that I don't like anyone. And then i go all retarded like and ask the person who they like, and when they say no one, i say "Everybody ALWAYS likes someone," and then my answer backfires on me. I'm so smart. John agnello tried to tell me he told me he likes chelsea; Whenhedidn't! Picture this : We're just sitting there, and then someone ELSE asks him if he likes chelsea, and he says yes! And then I say "Why didnt you tell ME that you liked her!?" AND he tries to tell me that he did. Neverheardathing. All i got from him all period was the famous "Idunno" guys favorite answer for everything. I even made him a sheet which read : DO YOU LIKE CHELSEA? __Yes __No. And all he picked was INBETWEEN; which he wrote on there. What a loser. Kristopher Melson called me a poser today. He is such a bitch. Just because i was wearing an element shirt today, Ohkay; It's not like it was mine, and it's definitely not like I'm going to wear it everyday. I think he was just mad because i wasn't wearing HIS shirt. Lmao. I don;t think i like anyone. I don't really want to like anyone. I dont know; Maybe, Maybe not. I need to know who Vinnie likes, just because I'm nosy like that. And Matthew Anderson. Because Of above reason. I break in two over you; now you need me... now you don't. Im out. ♥ What do you really think.

Wow;I wish you could pick relatives. [22ndNovember2004 -- 1:25pm] [ mood | to kill, or not to kill ] [ music | Billy Talent - Lies. ] Wow. I happen to think that my sister is retarded. She goes and makes a LJ, because i have one. And then, She goes and likes steals my information. It is like the exact same; many many similarities. How can she think that i would not notice. Haha, and she added me as a friend, it's funny how I'm not going to add her back. Look at her's tell me what you think. straight_moosey More later. 6 tell me the truth ♥ What do you really think.

Stop me before i get ahead [19thNovember2004 -- 5:21pm] [ mood | New cd!!! ] [ music | Nothing to Lose - Billy Talent ] Wowzerss. This song is Like wow. Definitly describing something in my life right now. Keane - We Might As Well Be Strangers. I don't know your face No more.... Or feel the touch, That I adore, I don't know your face no more... It's just a face I'm looking for. We might as well be strangers in another town. We might as well be living in a different world. We might as welll, We Might as well, We might as welll. I dont know your thoughts these daysss.. We're strangers in an empty space, I dont understand your heart... Its easier to be apart... We might as well be strangers in another town we might as well be living in another town We might as welll, We Might as well, We might as welll...Be strangers...Be strangers. For all i know of you now For all i know of you now For all i know of you now For all i know... Ah Keane. Luhve themm. New Billy talent cd thanks to Lindsay!! Love you! 2 tell me the truth ♥ What do you really think.

[17thNovember2004 -- 4:43pm] [ mood | nothing to do todayyyy ] [ music | <3 The Used <3 ] Got something for you guys to do, since you luhhhve me. And even if you fuckers dont have a journal you can post. Because, I so know that people read, without commenting. And even if I dont know you that well, comment. Comments = ♥♥♥. Wow, I'm retarded, good thing i came back and actually read this post, so Here's what I want you to do: Comment and say anything you want. A confession, a fear, a secret, a story or just a joke. Post it anonymously if you want. Then post this as a public entry in your journal. ♥ I do my happy go lucky so well I'm even fooling myself exohexohexohexoh p.s.. Any one want to help me make a layout, like very soon. This one is getting way to boringgg. And I don't know anything about layouts, so i wont be able to help. Haha. I am Layout-retarded. 11 tell me the truth ♥ What do you really think.

When I'm with you I feel like I could die and that would be all right. [16thNovember2004 -- 7:36pm] [ mood | cake......! ] [ music | None, dad's watching poker on the tele. ] I Hate Men. Most of the time. They cause wayyyyy to many emotions to Flood into my brain. And It's not fun sometimes. Went Over Chelsea's House todayyyyy. Best Friends For Evahhh. ah ha ha. xOur weird laughx, that thing is the funniest! Ill sherman made fun of our laught today, Loser. - Running across the boulevard so we didn't die. - Walking into sherman's house then walking back and THEN ringing the doorbell because we didn't want to get in trouble. -Crossing the street so those people didn't kill us. -Making Brownies when I HAD TO LEAVE, so i couldn't get any. -Not letting you play your new game. Ah ha ha. Too many fun times. Best thing about today --> I did NOT have church school. exohexohexohexohexoh. 3 tell me the truth ♥ What do you really think.

Quotes Quotes Quotes. [15thNovember2004 -- 4:25pm] I'm just a girl I keep my promise I won't bite completly harmless.. ...most of the time. ...you`re my hearts latest obsession Take love, multiply it by infinity and take it to the depths of forever.. and you still have only a glimpse of how I feel for you.. [I'm so ready to be in love Im so ready to be sick to my stomach missing somebody.] Excuse me, but... I think you forgot to give me back my heart♥ After You so Kindly ripped it out. </3>You do something to me that I just can`t explain..xOx</center> so if you've made it just be glad that you did and stay there if you ever feel loved or needed just remember that you're one of the l u c k y o n e s <33 and if it's over just remember what I told you it was bound to happen so just k e e p m o v i n g o n there are no perfect endings. Isn't it hard. Standing in the rain. You're on the verge of going crazy and your heart's in pain No one can hear though you're screaming so loud You feel all alone in a faceless crowd Isn't it strange how we all get a little bit weird sometimes. Sitting on the side waiting for a sign, hoping that my luck will change. Reaching for a hand that can understand, someone who feels the same. When you live in a cookie cutter world being different is a sin. So you don't stand out. And you don't fit in. I was thinking about how it drives me crazy just to feel your hand in mine, and how simple that is. When I'm with you I feel like I could die and that would be all right. I know you never meant to do everything you put me through, it's okay I forgive you.. "Watch your mouth, hold your tongue. Some things are better left unsaid." -The Juliana Theory You've broken so many hearts you've lost count but thats ok, i didn't wanna be remembered anyway. "I need someone who can deal with me. I need a guy who will make me see things from a different point of view. I need a guy who will make me talk about the things that scare me. I need a guy who will make me open up to him, a guy who won't give up on me." Dear heart, Today i met a boy, Prepare to shatter, xx You're name is filling up the pages of my diary oh so quickly. My life was great until you came along and fucked it up. I swear I liked myself much better when my heart didnt work. and its safe to say .. that im officially missing you .. Do you ever wonder why i turn away when you look at me its because i dont want you to see what you do to me but you cant see the things i seem to see I know how perfect you and me could be If it makes you happy it can't be that bad. If it makes you happy, then why the hell are you so sad? I am sick of wondering where he is and who he’s with. "When people ask me why i like you, I say i don't know, Because if they knew, They'd slap me upside the head for being so stupid" Staying single keeps things nice and simple. You don't get your heart broken, and you don't hurt anybody but yourself. I have a favor to ask, I'm hoping it's not too much. After all, you said you'd always be there for me, so here it goes..don't like her. Don't pick her. Don't be with her. Anyone but HER. It hurts me too much. If I could possibly fit one more thing in there, if it is ok with you, maybe, just maybe, do you think you could fall for me? Ill update Laaytah. ♥ What do you really think.

[13thNovember2004 -- 6:05pm] Wow, I have not updated in ever. For some odd reason, I have been insanely social these last couple of days. Usually I am not. Weird. Made lots of new friends. Seen people I haven't seen in ever. And hung out with people I've never hung out with before. ( All The People ) And i so don't feel like typing a lot more. I'm so lazy. Haha. Uhmmm. I need to take a shower. Oh new people like me. But I'm going to plead the fifth and not say. Cause i heard it's a secret. So that person who knows, hush. And i do not like him. I am a Single WOMAN. Unlike you. Haha. But you love him, so it's all good. And I dont know who i Like. Well Maybe i do. But i plead the fifth on this also. Thats it for now. Might go bowling later. Hopefully. I want out of my house. outoutoutoutout. More later. ♥ What do you really think.

READ READ READ [9thNovember2004 -- 6:37pm] Shelby Luhves Vinnieeeeee. And Vinnie luhves Shelby, but she doesnt think he does. Haha. They are getting married. And I'm maid of Honor. Yay! Nothing else Big. Just felt the need to update. Oh and I think one of my friends are going to be vur-ie happy soon. :coughSHELBYcough: IF YOU CATCH MY DRIFT YOU LOOSAH. And it so shouldnt be hard to figure this one out. Ohkay one hint. It happens when BOY LIKES GIRL. Then they ____________________. And then get engaged and then married. Fill in the blank Loosah. Then comment and thank me thank me thank me because i gave you such a great clue. ♥ 3 tell me the truth ♥ What do you really think.

[6thNovember2004 -- 9:02pm] [ mood | morose ] [ music | some scary movie my sister's watching. ] Arg, why am I sooo Pathetic. I Just cried at my first movie ever, And it was the Cinderella Story. With Hillary Duff. And It's so not supposed to be one of those movies that you cry at either. I mean, there's one part in the movie where it is pretty sad. And I did cry there, because it was pretty sad. My sister admitted to also crying at that part also. But I cried at the part where 'Austin'[ aka Chad Micheal Murry. Hot. Very Hot.] finally stopped being stupid and ran after the girl. I cried at the part where they got to be together actually! When Prince Charming and Cinderella get together and are happy. Isn't that the part where your supposed to be happy, not sad? Gahhhh. Why am I so Freaking emotional all the time now. Little things, Very Little things are starting to get to me. I so never used to be like this. Nothing got to me. Why Now? Writing this right now is getting to me. Good thing I don't have Mascara on, or it would be running. Where is my freaking Prince Charming? In Every movie, there's always a Prince Charming. You never see the girl Not get the guy. Why don't they make a movie about reality once. One where the Girl doesn't get the guy. There really needs to be a movie like that. And it should come out very very soon. So I can see that not every things always ends up happily. Once in a while, there has to be a bad ending. 'It's not always rainbows and butterflies' -- Maroon 5. That Quote So works right now. A bad ending, would make reality seem more real. I Need A Prince Charming. Right Now. 12 tell me the truth ♥ What do you really think.

Whatever. [5thNovember2004 -- 10:35pm] [ mood | frustrated ] I DO NOT LIKE MATTHEW ANDERSON AND/OR MATTHEW SCHERMAN. End of Story. 15 tell me the truth ♥ What do you really think.

Fill out Fill out Fill out. [4thNovember2004 -- 8:28pm] how do i know you?: when did we meet?: are you glad we met?: whens the last time you saw me?: were you happy to see me?: have we gotten in fights?: do you regret anything?: if so, what do you regret?: whats the funnest thing we've done together?: stupidest?: whats one thing you wished you could forget?: why?: whats one thing you'll never forget?: how long do you think we'll be friends/know each other?: anyother comments?: do you miss me?: are you mad at me?: do you wish i was there?: do you love me?: do you think im annoying?: hyper?: overactive?: lazy?: boring?: mean?: bitchy?: nice?: cuddly?: caring?: sensitive?: lovable?: weird?: honest?: funny?: have i hurt you?: have i helped you?: have i laughed at your expence?: have i made you cry?: have you hated me?: loved me?: have i gotten in trouble for you?: have i lied for you?: have i "done" things with you?: have i yelled at you?: have i embarrassed you?: have i made you laugh?: have i forced you to do things?: have i threatned you?: have you ever took my advice?: have i ignored you?: have i contradicted myself?: have you told me a secret?: do i keep my word to you?: have i ever lied to you?: did you ever need me?: have you ever wished the worst apon me?: any last comments?: Fill out Fill out Fill out Pleaseee. ♥ What do you really think.

[3rdNovember2004 -- 4:12pm] [ mood | stooopid social ] 10th grade As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. 11th grade The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. Senior year The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. Graduation Day A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. A Few Years Later Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her t o know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. Funeral Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! I wish I did too... I thought to my self, and I cried. That's why people shouldn't keep their feelings to themselves... Sad stuff eh? I wish i was smart enough to tell the guy i like, that I like Him. But, no such luck. T O T A L L Y bummed it today. - Baggy Pants, With My Own draw string. - Hoodie. - And, just not being my normal self. Stooopid social project due tomorow. Roar...I do not even know what I'm doing. Gay Social. I've decided that I'm tooooo abusive. Especially on guys. Even though, they abuse me back. It All evens out eventually. Ewwww-ie. Hott German Girl Exchange Students are trying to ruin my life. And I SO predicted this happening too. So you know, all the guys are in AWE over the Xchange students. Girl Xchange students. Which totally is stupid, because they'll be gone in 9 days anyway. So wahts the point. No point at All. Christopher Mettler is supposedly in love with me, so says Kris M. Ugh, i so dont like him...He's Way To Imature. Aww i got a hug from melson todayy. He's so cute. And i think he's actually taller than me now. Bummer. 3 tell me the truth ♥ What do you really think.

[2ndNovember2004 -- 5:22pm] [ mood | Church schoool. ] [ music | Greenday -*> HoLiday.... ] ( You Never see It coming 'cause your Blinded from the start ) Learned how to do that from ShelbAy. Well how too put more than One word in the link. Thank you Vurry much, you vinnay lover you. So far this weeks been Alrighte. Nothing special. Went to an In-School play yesterday. Very exciting. Trevor Bliquin Is A W O N D E R F U L Actor. But i Never would want to be married to him, Heh. Sat Next to Brian and Matt. Matt feel asleep so i slapped him. And Im very abusive, so says matt and brian. Even though they beat me up also. You so can't let a boy hit you without hitting him back! Justin, and Samantha are convinced I like every single boy I talk too. I so dont. Also went over Jerry's. Aka Shelbie. Lamo. We are Too corny. And today Social Project. Yay. Not. Jerry thinks I like Matt. I don't think I do. Boys suck. They need to learn how to get their feelings straight. They're becoming more and more like girls every minute! What-a-shame. Thats it ferrr Now. Church school in 1 and A half hours. JOYYYYY. Later Dawgs.</center> 4 tell me the truth ♥ What do you really think.

[31stOctober2004 -- 7:36pm] ..Take a number and get in line, doll. Heartache goes on forever.. ♥ Jessieee 3 tell me the truth ♥ What do you really think.

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